My Angel, My Demon

My heart lays shattered, and you talk to me as though my feelings don't matter. 

All the little pieces are too sharp. They cut me if I try to touch them. 

I cry and cry, because i can't fix the puzzle. You refuse to stay and watch me fall to the floor in tears. I just can't help but try to fit the shards together. I'm not going to beg you. 

Go ahead and leave!

I wont let you win. Just when my chest stops bleeding, here you come holding the glue. Lifeless, I stare as my heart is repaired. Perfectly, your smile lures me to believe in love once again. Stop pretending. You never were more than a nightmare. 

Are you even real? 

As many times as you've stopped my beating heart, I can't still be alive.

How is it possible that I've survived? All this time I've been fooling myself. 

You've always been there when I was broken.

But, you were never there while I was whole. Do I destroy myself to have a moment with you? I thought you were my angel. Now, I know the truth. I wont let you rescue me. 

I can pull myself from the ground. I hear you whispering,"Baby, your mine and you know I'm always around." Then I drift under your spell. I feel the hole in my chest fill with breath. 

I've lost myself in you. You have me in your world, and I'm blissfully trapped. 

I'm just waiting to awaken.

Pour your love into me. I can't hold onto the sky as the clouds turn into light. 

I'm on the floor again. You were never there! My hands full of slivers and still, I can't fix my heart. 

Blood covered, I push my body from the ground.

Now, watch me stand. I close my eyes, and you're there again. 

Open my eyes and alone I shove the entity back into place. Pain wont keep me bound to you. I've let go. I must be dreaming through the days. I don't need anymore lies.

Life is mine this time! I'll take control and show you just what I can do. 

Clinging to memories wont keep me down.

The nights wont get lonely. The days wont be too long. 

My strength wont fail me if I don't look back.

All the pieces slowly melt into place. I have what it takes to find vitality. 

You wont be the death of me, although you got the best of me.