With All My Heart

I was lost and afraid.

I was lonely and broken.

But, you said to me"If you need to cry, here's my shoulder.

My heart will be your shelter. These arms are here to keep you safe.

Come here. Baby, I'll be your hiding place.

When the world is too cold I will keep you warm.

When you feel like life is too much, I will be the storm that carries you away.

Everyone can disappear, but I'll still be right here.

I'll Love you forever. I'll Love you with all of my heart."

I was lost until you found me;

Afraid but then you held me.

I was lonely until you loved me;

Broken, then you made me whole.

I will Love you forever.

I Love you with all of my heart.

J.S.Hero

All heroes face death.
Some continue living after the hero inside is desolated.
This is a short tribute to my hero.
He was once the greatest man I'd ever known.
He held up the cold, vast world into the glory of the sun.
Now, he's weary; life has stripped all traces of heroic blood from his veins.
Who have I to look to now?
He is mortal, and I knew all along.
But, in my eyes he could do no wrong.
The peace that saturated my soul has been shattered.
It seems as though nothing ever mattered.
Once, you were Peter Parker. You were Spiderman.
In that story I would have been your daughter, May.
But, in this life there is no Mary Jane.
So, our story never was.
Realization sets in, and everything is dust.

Safe With Me

I hear a voice enter my mind.
It calls to me so sweet and light.
I'll be your guardian.
You'll never fall down again.
The angels will carry you.
I'll be anything you need me to.
Here I am to always save you.
Come on! Baby, hold on.
We'll escape through the night and emerge with the dawn.
Everything will be just fine.
Promise me, you'll be mine.

Good Enough

Embrace me, and don't let go!
Wrap your love around my soul.
Chains of love hold me.
Please, don't ever set me free.
Allow my heart to thaw at his touch.
Isn't he the only one I've ever loved this much?
All of my dreams are there on his face.
When he smiles, my dreams change.
The words I need can't be found.
When I speak there's no sound.
Don't trust me, because I can only let you down.
Just when you build a world around me, I'll burn it to the ground.

Chris: My Saving Angel

Falling forever...
I can't breathe.
The ground seems to be nowhere below me.
Infinite gliding in chaos and panic;
Will anyone catch me?
Could I continue to cascade without end?
There's a sudden ringing in my ear.
Such a ghastly sound, I must be dead!
Warmth.
I've stopped.
No longer do I fall.
I landed on something soft?...
Now, the space is shifting.
My body is being lifted, yet I am held in place.
I open my eyes, but cannot see.
Something is pressed against my face.
My heart is pounding from the fall, I guess.
Could that be my heart beating so fast?
Heavy breathing in my ear.
It can't be myself that I hear!
Has an angel rescued me?
Finally, I start to see..
Gentle whispers in my hair tell me there's nothing to fear.
But, who holds me so near?
I know this love which binds me!
It's his heart that finds me.
I realize now, that I shall never fall again.
Because, I fell for him.

For Always and Never

Wear my heart around your neck.
Let it lay upon your chest.
Next to yours it shall rest.
When you sleep, I'll be your dream.
Let me fulfill your fantasy;
While there's still hope for you and me.
Because, we will never be.
So, make me your favorite memory.

Your Guardian

Fallen from grace, my wings are just shadows.
Not a gleam of white shines now. Heaven is missing.
I can't find it from the ground.
Colors are vivid, but I only see darkness.
What has been done to me?
I walk through the noise, through pain, and through sorrow. 
I don't feel much else.
Is this a dream? Maybe, I'm crazy.
It's like I've become invisible, and no matter what my world and yours aren't the same.
Seems like looking right through glass.
I'm left out, but I know what's happening.
Am I alive at all? How can this be real?
This must be how it feels to fall!
I can't touch you. You don't even know I'm here!
Time slips by slowly. I can't get it back.
These anxious thoughts consume me. They tell me to hold you.
My mind is begging my body to save you.
But, I try everyday and nothing changes.
When you reach out to me it's a nightmare.
I tear myself apart trying to show you that I'm right here.
I'll keep you safe! How can I do anything but follow you? 
You are my heart. I'm nothing now. 
My whole world is you.

Smile In Your Sleep

The way you smile in ur sleep makes me wonder what you're dreaming. As I slowly touch my lips to your sweet face, I think the Love you wear begins to fade.
It isn't me that kindles your glow. Do you pull away from me or press closer when you wake? When did your heart escape?
I didn't know you were falling apart! Let me find that spark that has left your sleepy eyes.
Please, give me this chance to save you once again. Break your heart; my blood ceases to flow. Why didn't I feel your lonely tears?
You take a breath; my lungs expand. Was this just part of your plan? You knew i'd be so captivated that i'd be yours through to my soul.
I'm begging you to never let go. Baby, I was made for you. Tell me those reassuring words, the ones I rarely ever heard. Help me understand how you have me in the palm of your hand. Even if it's not true I'll keep believing. The way you smile in your sleep lets me know that you're dreaming of me.
When I wake up, I know you'll be laying in my arms. So, just keep smiling as you dream, because it means you're happy where you are. Hopefully, you're happy where you are. Without you, I'm not me! Baby, smile in your sleep.

A Letter For My True Love

Chris , I Love you so very much. For even a moment apart from you could scar my soul. This deep longing fullfilled at last to belong. In the heart I know is where you struck me. Like a waterfall we rushed together, and calmed each others restless wandering. It was an instant knowledge of completeness that led me to believe I had found that which millions have always searched for. 
God made a plan for our lives to be intwined. Do I ever haunt your dreams or consume your thoughts?
 Am I all you imagined you'd ever need? To me this is the most different thing I've ever encountered.
Love is like the unknown in the depths of the sea that will amaze and shock with beauty that's dangerously inviting. 
To be Loved is the greatest gift that ever shall exist. Being accepted and pleasing to others is a strong part of it. 
Feelings like this are complicated; they can cause people to act in ways that they never thought possible.
 It can bring out the best in a person or it can break them, but either way it's always good. 
The outcome of finding Love is like finding yourself no matter how weak and building your world over. 
Starting from the bounds that you couldn't see before, and wouldn't have known they were there without discovering the one that motivates you.
 Lingering in the heart is something that most will never understand. No organ could hold something so great. The soul is where Love is truly found.
 It's a God given emotion that is much more than the image we have created. Comprehension is something that cannot always be done properly. 
When it comes to the mysteries that God has created among us there are no boundaries to explore.

Christopher and Heaven

You're trapped in my world. It seems so dark, but there's always light, and you can hardly tell day from night. It's either raining or freezing cold.

When it's bright outside and the sun is shining down, you'll think it's finally safe but then the sky tumbles down.

The heat is too much and the wind blows so hard. The only time it's calm is when I'm wrapped in your arms. I feel you with me every moment.

We can be miserable together and put an end to all this. Close your eyes and feel the rain, wind, and sun back away.

Because, when I'm with you I control the pain.

I can tell the world to stop spinning right now, and time doesn't listen, but one day I'll slow it down.

I don't care what's happening on this earth as long as I have you. You're the only thing with worth. We can run away. But, who's running?

I can lay here all day and keep you on my mind and in my heart. I dare any mortal to try to keep us apart.

When time runs out you'll be the last thing I think about and the last one I see. Baby, you promised me that you would never leave.

Don't let me die first, because I'll stay behind and cry. You better hope we go at the same time.

I'd gladly leave this world to save you, but Baby that's not something I want you to go through. Not one single tear should slide down your face.

 I'd be right there in a timeless place where you and I can just be together basking in His grace.

My Angel, My Demon

My heart lays shattered, and you talk to me as though my feelings don't matter. 

All the little pieces are too sharp. They cut me if I try to touch them. 

I cry and cry, because i can't fix the puzzle. You refuse to stay and watch me fall to the floor in tears. I just can't help but try to fit the shards together. I'm not going to beg you. 

Go ahead and leave!

I wont let you win. Just when my chest stops bleeding, here you come holding the glue. Lifeless, I stare as my heart is repaired. Perfectly, your smile lures me to believe in love once again. Stop pretending. You never were more than a nightmare. 

Are you even real? 

As many times as you've stopped my beating heart, I can't still be alive.

How is it possible that I've survived? All this time I've been fooling myself. 

You've always been there when I was broken.

But, you were never there while I was whole. Do I destroy myself to have a moment with you? I thought you were my angel. Now, I know the truth. I wont let you rescue me. 

I can pull myself from the ground. I hear you whispering,"Baby, your mine and you know I'm always around." Then I drift under your spell. I feel the hole in my chest fill with breath. 

I've lost myself in you. You have me in your world, and I'm blissfully trapped. 

I'm just waiting to awaken.

Pour your love into me. I can't hold onto the sky as the clouds turn into light. 

I'm on the floor again. You were never there! My hands full of slivers and still, I can't fix my heart. 

Blood covered, I push my body from the ground.

Now, watch me stand. I close my eyes, and you're there again. 

Open my eyes and alone I shove the entity back into place. Pain wont keep me bound to you. I've let go. I must be dreaming through the days. I don't need anymore lies.

Life is mine this time! I'll take control and show you just what I can do. 

Clinging to memories wont keep me down.

The nights wont get lonely. The days wont be too long. 

My strength wont fail me if I don't look back.

All the pieces slowly melt into place. I have what it takes to find vitality. 

You wont be the death of me, although you got the best of me.

Awaken In Winter

Then pain of your skin losing feeling as it freezes is bitter. You look around only to find that all is covered in a blanket soft and white. Then, slowly chills shake through your bones. Appreciating the way it gently falls from the sky, you simply stand in the parade of gorgeous flakes as they dance to the ground. The harsh way that the wind has scraped your body makes you run to the comfort of a warm fireplace. Only moments outside can chase even the most awe stricken admirer to seek shelter. How long are you willing to stare into the beauty as the world is being ripped apart without anyone to repair it? The breaking is the most captivating part.

          Tears slide down lonely faces and plop onto the earth. But, not even love can fix the mistakes that have been so easily overlooked. Sitting in solitude, what is it that I have done? Do you understand the depth to which my love shall not waver? You don't ever have to face this life alone. 

The Military Wife's Sadness

The one I love has gone away, but in my heart he'll always stay.

I know that he is far from home. He went out to protect our own.

For our freedom and our rights, my soldier defends and fights.

Because for him I deeply care, when I close my eyes he'll be right there.

Just a whisper in my dreams is his never-ending love for me.

It's because of him that you can rest without fear. Everyday he risks his life which to me is so dear.

As you bow your head tonight to pray, ask God to bring him home perfectly safe one day.

Forgive me if I seem harsh or hard, but this life without him is severely scarred.

Strength is only a fraction of what it takes to be apart from family. He promised to come back to me.

Separation becomes a bad word. It's the worst thing a soldiers wife has ever heard.